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Twister of Emotion

Love, sparkling in an abyss of open water

A body of land god forgot to cover

Love, glistening in each star we wish on

The moon beams down a path of sanity

Hate, twirling around a forgotten meadow

The grass angrily sways to the roaring winds

Hate, stomping over the thin black sheet of ice

White flurries of heaven smashed into a pit of darkness

Warmth, arrays of light jumping off of crystallized glass

A torpedoing cone of pastel color

Warmth, friction between a unified body of love

Hearts being intertwined and sewn onto a cloth outlasting eternity

Frigid, tidal waves of glaciers beating down upon the calm sea

Disturbing the very thought of peace

Frigid, broken ice sculptures falling onto a fragile land

Memories frozen still in time never to be reborn

Time, a constant reminder of our well being

The silent promises of another moment

Time, a hidden mirror of future experiences

A whispered prayer of our moments together.

A love song?

A love song with no title, no words or description

Nothing to explain, leaving nothing to believe

Leaving everything to wonder.

A love song with no foundation, no common grounds or theme

Nothing to show, leaving nothing to understand

Leaving everything to your imagination.

A love song with no basis, no warmth or feeling

Nothing to explore, leaving nothing to look forward to

Leaving everything to question.

A love song with no emotion, no rhythm or sway

Nothing to feel, leaving nothing to expect

Leaving everything in the hands of a lie.

A love song with no depth, no heart or soul

Nothing to see, leaving nothing to trust

Leaving everything to believe this is not love it is lust.

...and i

… and I wonder what would happen if I never looked your way
If I just quietly sat oblivious to my surroundings…
Would you have noticed me?

… and I wonder if I never took the first step
If I walked by pretending to be invisible, pretending you weren’t there…
Would you have approached me?

… and I wonder if all this time I never made an effort
If I let the phone stay silent all day long…
Would you reach me first?

… and I wonder if I went my own way
If I told you I was better off alone…
Would you follow me?

… and I wonder what would happen if I said my goodbyes
If I acted as if next to you is not where I belong…
Would you persuade me to stay?

… and I wonder if I let you down
If I walked away when you needed me most…
Would you do the same to me?


… and I wonder if I was to become attached
If I hung on your every word, and needed you everyday…
Would you eventually get tired?

… and I wonder if I told you that I hated you
If I took back my every word…
Would you believe me?

…and till this day I wonder
I wonder about this all the time…
Would you ever leave me?

My Roller Coaster of Love

It feels like forever - - but it really wasn’t even that long

SO many memories -- though a limited amount of an everlasting time

Smiles, fights & heartbreaks - - all creating a fusion of emotion

Knowing this is my first - - praying it will be my last

Swirling around a black hole -- but never falling into one

Love is something that can steal your sight – though you see clearer then you ever thought possible

It has been a very short time -- though together we traveled quite a distance

Never looking back you’d think you’d get lost - -together we concurred the biggest of battles

Dueling dragons and even the Hulk – fireworks exploding in front of us – while you held me close

And through closed eyes I held your hand – you led the way and I have never felt safer

In your embrace darkness no longer exists - - for you are my light my rolling thunder

Strong like bull I will call you El Toro - - and you shall forever be my strength

No need for spider man, superman or batman - - you are my never experienced nitro

Running through my veins like a DARK KNIGHT - - saving me from The Mummy

You are my Men in Black – with the power of flying me across the moon to meet ET

You hold me close when Skull Mountain rattles my brain – and have the ability to spin me so fast like a soaring teacup

With you by my side even a slow merry go round spins so fast - - I lose control like a twister

My mind and body are no longer in sync - - and my life becomes part of a wheel of progress

My heart can only long for more memories - - and for our time together to be a never ending array of wishes upon a falling star in front of a majestic never to be forgotten castle

You have given me enough memories and love for me to be able to say – these 8 months were the best times of my entire life

And forever I shall be grateful to the one person who can put a burning fire under my heart that never burned too close to hurt me.

I have been blessed with the most perfect gift and put the most suitable person first in my life – forever

Until the sun doesn’t shine, the moon falls beyond a river and stars become nothing more than false hope I will love you.

Because of this moment I know the sun will rise - the moon is gently beaming and every star I dreamed upon – made my wish come true – I know this because I still have YOU <3

EndlessTime

With an empty heart she chased him to the end of the world

Everything was out of sync when hell froze over cold

Nothing was the way it should always be

You’d unshield yourself from pain and still couldn’t see

Within the depths of her own mind she taught herself well

How to unbreak her heart and prevent it to swell

She knew all the right things to do and what she should say

She lived second to second hoping for a new day

Nothing in her life was permanent because change lurked behind

Nothing was safe and nothing can be confined

Confined from the pain of an endless time.

Life in a Broad Nutshell

Life can sometimes amaze you, and sometimes make you want to cry after a moment of happiness. Life is unexplainable and from a different person’s perspective sometimes seems so cruel. As much as you try and fight it sometimes it just seems easier to give in, then end up giving up more than one reason for your existence. From every boulder that life throws your way you try and find a reason to keep living, a moment in time that promises you one last breath before the devil takes his shot. Life doesn’t promise you much but it never gives you the ability to dream and wish without being given a chance and a slight beam of hope of changing your fantasies into a reality.